The feel of a First 99%ile :-)

Got the first 99 percentile of this season with a 99.96%ile in QA ...Iam elated...Success seams to be a few yards away....

64 days to gooooooooooooooooo..............................

Just 64 days to go......The pressure is rising up, my heart is warming up......

Got the Mock CAT result :95.11

A little succour, after the past few debacles...Last 5 days, I couldn't concentrate on my CAT preps due to excessive work...Closed the first Order (for me at HP), first time held negotiations with students (It was fun though).......................

Just surviving only with an unshackable feel that "CAT cant be so tough & I am gonna Crack it"...Lets see, whats gonna be the result....

A REBIRTH



Lot of decisions & action on decisions today.....

Got the percentile score of the mock held on 02.Sept - 69%ile...Whats this..I was down for a while again...Started giving a serious thought over whats happening around...Where am I faltering...

Step 1 I thought, the first thing I need to do was to shed off a little responsibilities atleast till CAT(As I feel that my mind is blocked with so many things ) & increase my Speed (Courtesy my buddies)....Now its a tough call on which one to chuck out & decided to stop teaching till 18th Nov.It was a tough decision, followed by a huge negotiations..TIME people wanted me to support them as they require me, but I went about convincing them with the rationale behind my decision.They agreed finally.......

Step 2: Now I need to practice more, lot more...I dont get time at home to do that..So went ahead to enroll myself for the SIMCATS as well as MAXCATS...

Now I have weekends to relax a bit, to think, rethink, analyse, strategise & soon....

Next 60 days are going to be the decider of my next 60 years of life (Hope I will live till 90,hehehehe)...Lets see whats in store....

STILL ALIVE.............................................

Just wanted to break the silence, a silence which would have made many to think that Iam dead...

I know its a very very deadly silence what I had been holding, but what for was it & why so is a big question mark....

Well, after I had decided to appear for CAT 2007, the agony, the anguish, the annoyance, the same old distraughtedness have all started rising their heads back which were hidden in my heart for quite a long time......

June 2007: Nothing much happened here as life was normal. Mock CAT performances - 94.5, 91, 92, 78.....What the heck was the last one..couldnt figure out...

July 2007: Got an offer from HP. lots of dilema, whether to take it or not
Started working out various combinations:-
Old Job + Cracking CAT - Ideal situation/decision
Old Job+ Not Cracking CAT - worst situation
New Job + Not Cracking CAT- Atleast would be left with a better job
New Job + Cracking CAT-A dream scenario.....

Decided to choose option4 as it was the most risky & highly paying option.....

Meanwhile got drifted away with so many things in life..Weeks came weeks went..Nothing great happened towards my CAT front...As a father & a family head, I started performing extremely well & got complimented on several occassions by my wife for the affection & time I gave towards them.....

One fine day in this month, I became one of the Moderators at Pagalguy.com...Aah, in just one year PG has paid back its love & now its time for me to do something to puys & PG as such...

Mock percentiles: 97.38, 97.56, 83.33, 89.99

August 2007: Joined HP, the brand which made me to look at it with pride....
A brand which I had been longing for......But, once I got in, I realised what is there behind this brand...Its sheer hardwork & dedication....

Everyday started working for 13-14 hours, right from day 1 as I have the responsibilty to prove myself...

Life has become mechanical ever since then....5 days of work at office & weekends teaching at TIME had taken the toll

Mock Performance : 42, 93...

September 2007: Even last year, I have went through the same story of poor mockcats, but was never perturbed...I had a strong feel etched in my mind which reads "CAT can never be so tough as mock CATs"..Now history is repeating....Same old horrible performances in Mocks..

Infact, I thought today that Iam squandering my own life, ruining it..Nothing seems to improve.Though I believe that, Mocks & CAT doesn't have any corelation, but when others can tough those coveted 99%ile, why am I unable to (Basically, unable to figure out my problem, is it over stress or exhaustion or what it is.....)

"LET ME JUST STEP BACK, I CANT CRACK CAT, WITH THE WAY IAM PERFORMING & WITH SUCH A CONFUSED MIND "........

This feel had been haunting me from the morning..But my buddies ensured me that Iam back to action..Anir & Nithin...The names which will remain in my mind through out my life...We are in different locations, moi in Bangy, Nithin in Mysore & Anir in Calcutta....But the closeness we have is unexplainable, the way we pull & push eachother after every mock is unforgettable...Infact Anir ensured that Iam back to target & never give up, before I step into my dream school.....

Meanwhile I forgot to write about my best buddy, Prahalad (IIMB)..This guy calls me after every mock just to check my performance and guide me asap.....Still he is fighting & figuring out how to improve my performances..If not for anything, I should crack it for the commitment he shows towards my preps...

Decided from today, Iam gonna be back with the same feel with which I had appeared in CAT 2006 & thats why I have started updating Blog.....Thanks Nitin, Anir & Prahalad for making me to realise that this emptiness is just a passing cloud & I have miles to go before I sleep..Thanks for making to resurrect back, when I felt I cant bounce back.....

CAT 2007, here I come to ace you......