CAT 2007 & Beyond:-I still remember how My wife, My Parents (Contrary to 2006),AbhiG1, Rosogulla, Anupamwillreturn, Prahalad85(From Pagalguy) & others here convinced me on 8th May 2007 to go about giving CAT 2007..On that day I was shattered, Results were out, situation was beyond my control still could garner whatever balance energy with which I was left and started the journey yet again towards what that time appeared to me as my destiny "IIMA".The moment I decided to give CAT 2007 ie May 2007 I started talking to myself saying that "This year I will not compromise on Family values, I will not be a Monomaniac, I will work smarter than Harder & what not".Infact I promised the same to my wife.I decided why don’t I start teaching, which will eventually help me in my own preps. Getting a part time Job with Time was not a problem as the Director knew me well (as a student).Started teaching from the last week of May...The Schedule was 5 days of office work, after work its to sit with the basics & then 2 hours with family..Saturday first half for family..Then second half of Saturday till Sunday evening teaching..First 2 months it was OK OK..Then I started feeling that I was getting worn out, still continued...This is the time 2 important characters joined the bandwagon...AnirIIM & Cimbaiash Nitin(Pagalguy)..We decided to prepare together...The Plan was like after every mock CAT we will have telephonic calls to discuss on the paper....After a month an important Character came into my life "GREENSPAN"(Pagalguy)..Dhosth kum Bhai Jyadha.....At some time during July, I got an offer from HP & I decided to accept the same with lots of ifs & buts...Life looked tormenting..A new Job ambience forced me to work 14 hours a day, couldn’t spend time for my family as promised..Couldnt give those additional tests which anir, nithin & spammy could give ..But kept on saying "Ekh test kum daenae say kya farakh padnae wala"..Always believed that CAT is crackable & to top that feel, scores of 99.98 in QA (Simcat) & 99.97 in DI (AimCAT) added to my belief that this time Iam really really close...Mock after Mock my scores were improving unlike 2006 Mocks which were fluctuating a lot...Just one month before the Exam I went through some personal issues both at Home & Work (I cannot explain them now)..These issues were actually huge in magnitude for me to handle..I started loosing the three essential things to crack CAT , "Concentration, Peace of Mind & Time to prepare"..So many guys here came in support, tried putting me back to form, but I never realised I was actually drowning.....But again I didn’t loose confidence..But CAT had something else to offer me as a proof for my over confidence....Couldnt do well in my strongest section..Those 2 & 1/2 hours my mind wasn't working..It started thinking about all those problems I was going through along with the pressure to solve a tough QA section....Came out dejected..Knew that I have lost the Battle...Didnt want to speak to anyone..was cursing at my own self for whatever has been happening & how I have given room to the problems to encapsule me which under normal circumstances would have been the other way round...Felt really ashamed to step into the class to teach QA...Felt really lost and this debacle pushed me to look at XAT in way of taking revenge especially in QA & the results showed that with a 98.xx in QA...
Jan 8th
CAT results were declared......Got to know my scores....Was in office, couldn’t react ie didn’t want to..Reached home after loafing here & there...Was chatting with anupam at 1.00 AM that’s when I started feeling that pain..Tears started rolling down....The feel that "Bye Bye IIMs" was eating me..
Jan 18th
XAT results day..Site was not working...Called up Harshad...Got the Rely,"Bhai, GMP sae call hae, congrats"..I was actually Jumping..Happy Indeed..Thats fine..I have a call to prove something (Btw got a NMIMS call too)...Started showing that same old vigour..Felt that this call would be a rescue for the situation in which I was...March 7th & 8thStill rememember how Viggy was motivating me & pushing me & how the interview went...
Rest all history......
Looking at the whole thing, I feel Iam much matured than what I was in June 2006 when I joined PG...Iam sure, I will come back as the same old person whom you had met/known/spoken to..All I need is that feel, which will make me strong again , out of the cross roads..A feel, which will make me believe "Iam born today, Problems are of yesterday - before my birth".Iam sure with your wishes I will gain it....
In these 2 years I have learnt so many things about Bschools, Life in B Schools, Placements & what not (without actually being in a B School)...I also realised something called as true love from people here....I have no qualms....(atleast now), More than an MBA seat I have garnered the affection of so many guys here, which is more than an IIMA/XL seat.....I actually enjoyed the whole process like any one here say 23-25 years of age..Competing with each other, pushing each other ...Under Dog Team(Pagalguy.com) actually has a permanent place for me , 2006 - Member, 2007-Captain & 20xx-a permanent coach.
As I always say,
"Never give up for any reasons..You are just close to your dream"..Believe in your dreams, because those dreams belong only to you & you have the responsibilty to fulfill your own dreams.....
Never say,'This is difficult I cant do"..No never, everything is possible (look at my own case)......
Never think PagalGuy is just a forum ..A Big No..Its filled with emotions & passions as what you have, its filled with blood & feeling, It smiles when you smile, its cries & stands behind you when you fail....
Most of all, never doubt your own self in whatever you decide in Life as its your life, you know it better..once decided never step back..
As far as me, I havent decided anything as I never decide things when my emotions are high/low..Will take some time but will surely inform my family ie you....
I personally thank each & everyone who shared my pain, who came out with contingency plans, who believed in me more than I believed in myself & so on.......
Keep the faiths high & Keep Believing in Yourself
Ps: Watch out for My daughter who will come as a Prem No 2 with the same dreams, passion as her DAD....
PS: For sure its not a bye bye Post..But its a silence after the storm...........which I want to enjoy for some more time :-)
posted by Prem | 3:29 AM
9 Comments:
success or falilure ..it doesnt matter. what really matters is how hard we fought for it , how dedicated we are towards our dream and evetually what we learned in this whole process. as per me u stood as a bench mark for many persons like me... your confidence and never say die attitude will surely pave the way for many CAT aspirants to get succeed.
as one of my teacher has said.. the hard ships and struggle which we endured in life will lead us to become more and more stronger in life...this is the real intangible benefit we got when we are chasing our dreams...
but you are very near to your goal .. so u should come back and fight again and make ur dream realize.all the best and thank u very much for your valuable support for many guys.
success or falilure ..it doesnt matter. what really matters is how hard we fought for it , how dedicated we are towards our dream and evetually what we learned in this whole process. as per me u stood as a bench mark for many persons like me... your confidence and never say die attitude will surely pave the way for many CAT aspirants to get succeed.
as one of my teacher has said.. the hard ships and struggle which we endured in life will lead us to become more and more stronger in life...this is the real intangible benefit we got when we are chasing our dreams...
but you are very near to your goal .. so u should come back and fight again and make ur dream realize.all the best and thank u very much for your valuable support for many guys.
Nice article...
My case is more dejecting though, have written cat 3times, still unable to crack, though my aimcats goes well.
Cleared snap, had a wonderful GD and PI. Was appreciated during both the processes of GD and PI(which is though rare), was confident so didn't give siom GD/PI.
Well, finally am not in SCMHRD...just because i'ad no work experience.
I don't get the essence of these kind of b-schools, who's whole modus operandi is simply to pick up the already settled working people to further settlements....
Wheres the credibility of such institutes.
I seriously don't get it...
You can become an effective manager just when u have a job, not the other way round of taking account of personal attributes...
well, one more cat attempt to go though....
Haha... thats success , partly filled with failure... maybe... god knows...
:)
Hi dude...
Dont lose hope...Jus keep it to urself..I hv been writing CAT since 2001...my seven attempts..itz been one hell of a experience...It has made me more stronger than ever before...Actually,i messed up with two SP Jain calls n one XL call..but this time around,I have an Admission offer from S P Jain Centre for Management,Dubai for their GMBA...I also have a GD PI call from IIM Shillong..I have parked the SPJ call for the time being..am going for my IIM S call on 28th Apr..Let me see what is in store for me...But I appreciate ur efforts..I also several problems in my family...Dont let your dreams die so easily...Dreams should never die till we die...It's these dreams and aspirations that run the whole human fraternity as a whole...
All the best for life n CAT too...
Rajesh
Asian Paints,Hubli
#9901488220
I don't know what to tell. So my journey in the CAT has started just this month.. with a less grip.. less power.. but highly confident which i never lose.
your message seems to give me boost for the confident mind.. not to cross the line of over confidence..
Thanks dear.. Beyond all this the way u have taken up the things in ur life gave me much attraction..
Keep running..
Life still bhakki hey Dhosth..
Hi prem,
I am reading your blog since long and i really appreciate your attitute and perseverance. It was your blog who gave me an inspiration when i used to feel dejected during my trying times. I have been trying to crack cat for last 3 years and i am fortunate that this time i got three calls viz. IRMA/XIMB/IFMR.
In retrospecion i feel, this whole process is not only about getting an admission in any institute (though that is what is counted in the end) but to improve one as a person. You have written this thing in your blog and i think i am not as experienced as you to tell these things but it is my genuine feeling that just holding position when we just thought of calling it quit is very important as actually that is the time where very few people can succeed in doing that. So, i feel instead of calling it a quit just keep it up and give it one more try may not for an admission in any institute but may be to prove the point that you deserve the best...wish you all the best and my regards to your family who has been with you through all these ups and downs...
That was really inspiring and touching. Yes, that journey surely made you strong. There's nothing in life that's called futile effort. Every effort put gives us some return, be it success or failure(coupled with valuable knowledge and experience). I was fortuante enough to get enough calls in my first go, but then the result matters to a lesser extent than the changes I underwent during the complete process. It certainly made me more mature than what I was. God Bless u !
-Sivaprasad Nair
That was a really straight from the heart & very inspiring article..
Man, I agree with you that most of the times you get what you want provided you stand long & keep fighting for your dream but I think this really doesnt apply for CAT..
Okk!! IIMs can give u the brand but waiting to crack CAT one year after the other isn't that sensible .Is it ? Because at the end of the day what matters is not where you are today but where you want to go.
Waiting to crack CAT for 2 years is ok!! but waiting for 5-7 years(as one gentleman has mentioned in the comment above) is an acceptance of the fact that either you lack something or your efforts lack that energy.
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